Dreamseeker4u, 50

before i was injured badly in a life threatening car wreck i
attended college. my major in college was pre-med because i wanted very much to be a doctor one day. i had the intelligence, the personality, and the will to fulfill my dream if i hadn't have almost been killed in the car wreck that changed my entire life. i used to love helping people especially those who needed my help. now i'm the one who needs help with certain things. i'm not able to physically help anyone since the wreck. this was very hard for me to accept several years ago, but now i realize that i can't change what happened to me that caused me to be disabled. it's almost unbelievable how much that a person's life can change dramatically in just a few minutes. what's heart wrenching is that i wasn't the driver of the car that i was in that wrecked and the wreck wasn't the driver's fault either. what's also terrible is that i'm one of the last people who ever deserved to have such a tragedy happen to them. nobody deserves to have anything so terrible happen to them as i had happen to me especially me. i'm such a good person, but i guess the saying is true, bad things often happen to very good people who never did anything to deserve it. i try to live each day the best that i can telling myself that god kept me alive for some reason, but i'm not sure if i'll ever figure out that reason. what doesn't make one bit of sense is why god allowed me to almost be killed.

i'm attracted to men in the medical field because i know that they must love helping others. i want a man who wants to be with me for my personality and how well that we get along and not because he feels sorry for me. i'm not looking for pity from anyone and i don't need any man as it may seem, but i want a man in my life to hold, to laugh with, to cuddle with, to share special moments with, to kiss, and to spend the rest of my life with.